“I remember, when I was a little kid, I was good at sports, and I could jump off the high board,” Prose says. “And then puberty hit, and suddenly I was looking to boys for direction. I remember that as a great loss. I still have to work my way back to where I was at 13.”
Francine Prose, Interview at NPR
The activity and age when it happened might have been different, but the sentiment rings true for me. I want to get back to how I was at thirteen, willing and ready to jump off whenever, where ever, whatever.